NEW YEAR, WHO DIS?!
Happy 2019! New year new me!!!....Just kidding, new year same me....BUT new goals new outlook and new attitude! I never have been one to make these silly new years resolutions (because I knew good and dang well I was NOT going to keep it). Towards the end of last year however, something in me just....CHANGED. I was so sick and tired of not having control over my life, always feeling like I was hiding in the shadows, not feeling good enough, or feeling worthy of anyone or anything I encountered. I was sick of having that large lump in my throat every time I started to get comfortable around them, out of fear of what they may think of me, or how they may perceive me. The world makes it hard enough to love yourself as you are, and to sit back and watch those you love tear you down without even knowing was even tougher. I've had to learn to pick and choose my battles, and accept that once someone shows you who they are then you better believe them! Not everyone cares to use that thing we have called a brain or cares to enlighten themselves on the world around them. Not everyone is going to take your feelings into consideration nor will they care to. The end of 2018 has pretty much FORCED me to be stronger. There was NO DELETING THAT VIDEO when I posted it lol!! I found an online support group where I help many new comers from ALL OVER THE WORLD, and it is the greatest feeling ever!!! My page on Facebook has recently picked up more views and visits with people interested in learning or looking for encouraging words and I could not be more satisfied! My goal is for my daughter to never fear rejection as I once did, to never feel disgusted with herself as I sometimes STILL do, to not blame herself for the wrong doings of others, and to be stronger than I EVER WAS OR COULD BE. We only get one life ya'll, and I have FINALLY after years of sorrow, have decided to start living mine in the spotlight! After all, I turn 30 in just a few months!!!
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