Even though I have been open and "exposed" about my situation and living with HSV (aka Herpes) I myself and also others have still been asking if I was sure I wanted to be "that girl" that was going to risk it all and put myself out there, for the sake of complete strangers. I contemplate this on a regular basis, wondering if I really am strong enough to bare the load of not only my own problems but others as well. Oddly enough, I've had more familiar faces come and share their stories with me about similar stories more than i have strangers. I have to keep telling my self that it has been TEN years....A DECADE of living in straight MISERY and I was on the verge of completely losing it! This year I finally have had enough and feel as though NO ONE should have to live everyday feeling ashamed or as though they are a walking unwanted "bother". I legit figured I would probably do more good than harm by not even affiliating with people. By staying in the shadows, it would allow me to avoid being the topic of discussion, I could avoid being the butt off all jokes, and avoid being used or easily manipulated. I am completely ok with being the one to have fingers pointed at me, if that means another person in silence can remain at peace. I'm not doing this to please the nay-sayers, I'm not doing this to please anybody, I am doing this for that little girl or little boy without a voice! For those who don't feel as though they aren't strong enough or worth enough! So when the next person starts to ask me "Are you sure you want to do this?" or even when I start to question myself.....the answer is always going to be HELL YEA!!!!!!
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